Q. Whats an addiction ??
Ans. Something that causes to rule over your mind, and not the other way around. Ive tried analysing the dynamics of this, and have unfortunately failed. It makes no sense, and hence I cant seem to analyse it. Why would man pay for his or her own destruction is beyond my understanding, but yet it happens and happens all the time. Its almost as if habits satisfy us, they satisfy our existence.

We're often beaten and bruised by this addiction, hurt very badly, emotionally or even physically to say the least, but thats hardly a deterrent for us addicts, we still push on, because we like this addiction, we're in love with how it feels.
This addiction is self defacing, it leaves no self respect, which seems so trivial in the search of happiness. Unfortunately, this self defacing battle is more often than not lost, and one is left with a few memories to salvage and a self preservation instinct that makes you think, its better now than later. Thanfully you fold shop, with sharp thoughts of a future that never was. You say your goodbye's and try and salvage whatever is left, but the bloody addiction doesnt let go... its a parasite that you cant live without... unfortuntely.... one must make mind rule over matter.. because its now or never...